For me, this quest for knowledge began a couple of years ago. I reached such a stage in my recovery that I felt confident enough to look inside and start trying to understand what was going on.
Everyday I discover something (normally many things) new. It is a very exhilarating experience to understand the world and how you fit into it.
After all you aren't born knowing any of that.
I guess it comes down to that desire for control. Once things are nicely labelled and filed away in the cabinet of understanding I feel much better in myself.
But at what point do you stop delving? Can you get addicted to that sensation of control?
